Birthday Love

Yesterday was my birthday.

I always get excited when my birthday nears, but this year it was mixed with trepidation. This is the end of my 30's, and I've been feeling very "I thought that I'd be/ have/do ______ by now.".

Then a few weeks ago it changed. I stopped having those doubts, and started feeling grateful.

All those little things we take for granted - healthy children, steady jobs, strong bodies, comfortable houses- they suddenly loomed large and stopped me in my tracks.  I realized that there is absolutely nothing I Need.   That what I was hung up on were my Wants. And Wants are things that are utterly under my control.

So I spent an uneventful day appreciating what I have.  I went to work, prepared and ate a healthy lunch, did some errands - I even went to the mall and could find nothing I Wanted. Because I already have everything I could possibly Need.

So Happy Birthday to me. It was a happy day indeed.